Finally.. i've picked up enough of the little courage i have to ask her for her number.. thou it isn't a difficult task.. but when u have a crush on the girl... it makes things complicating.. thou my target is to get her number.. and i have it already , but i feel guilty.. i actually resorted to trickery.. (at least to me) talking to her bout o level results and finally the words " your phone number??" . well.. that was .. infact exciting.. i was anxious.. i was scared.. in my heart i knew that she would give it to me.. but the pessimistic side of me got the better of me.. i felt it lurking round the corner.. whispering "she might not give it to you.. u dont be so happy" from experience, i learnt that being excited to early will give you an equal amount of dissapointment.. thats the only evil thought i couldn't get over now.. i don't want dissapointment.. but i know it's inevidable.. so i've made up my mind.. when i wake up.. i will show my emotions no matter in what circumstances.. let people know im happy.. let them know when im sad.. and most importantly.. i have to control my negative emotions.. anger.. and that headstrong character i have..

btw.. ihave to train up.. the food and all.. they're killing me.. cutting precious oxygen supply and contributes to the strain that my worked out heart is already having so much of.. musthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositivemusthinkpositive

currently.. im waiting for my results, it seems an eternity . No words can describe the way im feeling at the moment cuz it seems like theres a mountian full of worries.. but i feel as if im in space looking at this mountian, where the worries looks insignificant . Wait.. theres another feeling... i think it's loniness.. We grow and our friends starts to leave us because of work. well not exactly leave us.. but they distance away with those not too close. unlike the primary, secondary schools and jc bonding.. it's so fun.. results are coming out on friday.. i wanna treasure that day.. where i meet my secondary friends.. hope time will freeze that day .

anyway.. people who are petty.. pls.. trying to severe contact with those u are unhappy with is really childish.. u live only once.. why be so serious and kill everybody around u?? all i ask is forgivness for those i've done wrong to and i do not wish for u to forgive me.. biut i just hope that u will let me hve the chance to sort things out .. and that u are willing to clarify the matter with me and not try to block me on msn and not reply to my messages.. thanks

Well.. as i would like to put it, being adventurous isn't a bad thing but being too advanturous is like crap.
felt this kick to get out of the house desprately to escape from my mum's clutchs.. well... more like ear blasting

it sorta begins like this...........

once apon a time, there was this friggin exam call the O'levels , and that most of the not so smart and consistant pupils have to stay put and stay study hard.. well i was one of them pupils, this was bad.. cuz i was hot tempered, and insensitive bastard.. and i did not understand why my parents and my bro pressured me so hard.. well the exams are over now.. and they blast in to my ears still, "hey!! what are you gonna o bout your future!! "

hey.. pls .. my exams are over dudes.. cant you just let me have some serenity?? just for 3 bloody months??
hey, just cuz i din get into first 3 months of jc does not mean im not planning my life.. hello !!

parents out there.. i seriously hope that u people would give ur children some room.. giving them too much pressure sometimes disables their ability to grow.. give more encouragements.. support them from behind.. let them have a feeling of decision making, if they like it , they're a leader, if not don't force it.. wont work out..


Btw.. i didn't know macritchie reserve was so big until today .. i went trekking with shao wei.. god was i tired, we started out from 3 till 7 . but i was famished and my legs feels like they could wither off anytime.. i was soaked in pespiration and i was smelly.. the goods thing was, i enjoyed that.. the walk and all.. the chance to see the wildlife .. whoa i was worth my time, well it's betta than sitting in front of that chunk of sillicon and steel and spend the whole day surfing the net.. great workout.. fresh air .. boy do i feel refreshed
oh my.. look at the time now.. damn it's so late .. i'd probably get to bed now.. i feeZZzzzzzz

ARghhh!! the world's in balance... well. that what it wants u to think.. but in fact.. it's getting crazyly out of the "hey 'action = reaction'" thingy...

Dont mind me saying.. but whats the world coming to????

Enough of the crapping.. well
recently .. i met this reeaaally nice girl.. (well.. to me doh)

arhh... i feel kinda creepy doh
well.. for her.. cuz i'v been like crazy over her and she might not notice..
so as i was saying.. i met her whilst shopping and i fell in love straight away..
i dont know why.. dont ask me why.. but i just felt it.. i fell in love with an average girl..
she was special.. well everyone is... but she was different.. she had a character i'd die for..
talking to her made me feel glad... but the fact is.. im having thoughts about having her a a friend..
cuz .. u noe how people usually neglect you after u tell them u actually like them??
yea.. i dont wana lose her.. in anyway... so... i dont know.. cuz im feeling she's trying to hint to me that
it's not possible.. so i cant.. argh!!
haha
cant write anymore... the more i write.. the more i feel like crying.. and so not to let myself cry in the middle of the night.. i'll stop here.. haha